I seem to have lost desire for anything here lately. I think that my current antidepressant isn’t working, which I have already gone to the doctor about and she changed it, I just haven’t gone to the pharmacy to pick it up yet. But she put me on an old one that seemed to lose it’s strength there at the end as well, so we will see how this will go. I just do not have the desire for anything, not for food; but I eat because isn’t that what we are supposed to do to keep our bodies healthy. No desire to be around people, but I have a job and there are people that is involved with doing that job, I don’t even want to be around my family most of the time. I have no desire for watching my favorite TV shows so I just turn on the TV to something that I’ve already watched just for some noise and I fall asleep on the couch when my mind will let me. I have no desire for my work but I need to pay bills so that is a must.
I really need to get out of this rut but I do not know how to. I know trying the new antidepressant might help but for how long? I did sign up for a gym membership and I love going there but again, there is the loss of desire, I felt great during my time actually there but when I would leave, it was a whole new ball game. It was like the endorphins that worked up in my body seemed to disappear. I need a permanent fix.